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Christ is amazing. I don’t know if I can put to words what I’m trying to express right now but all I can say is Christ is amazing. Okay I can say a little more I guess…

God’s presence… I’ve always been so completely perplexed by what it means to be in His presence that it has become something so unattainable for me. As I’m going through the Old Testament I’ve been realizing how holy and majestic His presence was to all his people. There was so much fear and reverence that these people had when entering his presence. And at the same time it was so easy and normal for them. Moses was constantly interrupted by God’s presence (in a GOOD way of course) and he took what the Lord told him in those moments and ran with it (even if he was hesitant). But it was so normal for him to enter his presence. Moses longed for it more than anything. (Exodus 33:15-16)

AND THIS GETS ME A LITTLE IRRITATED! (Excuse my yelling. Yes caps means I’m yelling) Where is my fear and reverence in entering His presence? How come there’s no comfort in the fact that I must be in fear and reverence before the Lord? How come I can’t be in His presence every day?

But what has left me feeling so dumbfounded today is that Christ and the Holy Spirit is who allows me to be in His presence so easily. What I learned today was that Christ and the Holy Spirit is what drives my desire to be in His presence. This is why I’m sharing this with you… (YEAH YOU.. my one reader. :( Thanks for stopping by btw) Because today as I entered the presence of God, I was comforted by the things of God that I could not understand and could not find “awesome” and I was thanking God for his glory…. something that I could not grasp a full understanding of and a comfort from in a long time. And it was only through the Holy Spirit that this was possible. Holy Spirit… our comforter, our counselor, is sent from the Lord for us to experience things that this world can never offer us. I was, for the first time in my life, comforted by His presence. (OH YAH and btw this is the same presence that Moses encountered as well…… what.)

I just reread everything written here and it’s already becoming very confusing to me. That was a whole lot of repetitive and confusing words but I don’t know how else to describe this unless I’m talking to you in person. I always think things are better said in person than on paper. Many will disagree. ANYWAYS I’m sorry and this is the end of my story telling time. :X

how much time will I waste?

I think this may be the first time in my life where things have been so uncertain and nothing is in order. I hate this… yet at the same time… I’m glad to be here. What the heck have you been doing with your life, Erin? (<-why do I always address myself on my posts. whatta loser) Were you THAT in control of your life that this is actually the first time you’re being stumped?! IM SUCHA FOO. When will I ever learn to let go and have faith. Almost seems impossible for me right now.

God, let me revisit the beauty of the gospel during this passion week. I need to taste and see something greater than this bit of uncertainty that I have.

Give me eyes to see more of who You are,
May what I behold still my anxious heart,
Take what I have known and break it all apart
For You, my God, are greater still

And no sky contains,
no doubt restrains all You are,
the greatness of our God
I spend my life to know that I’m far from close to all You are
the greatness of our God 

Give me grace to see beyond this moment here
to believe that there is nothing left to fear.
And that you alone are high above it all
For You my God, are greater still

And no sky contains,
no doubt restrains all You are,
the greatness of our God
I spend my life to know that I’m far from close to all You are
the greatness of our God 

And there is nothing that can ever separate us
There is nothing that can ever separate us from Your love
No life, no death, of this I am convinced
That You are God, are greater still

And no words can say, or song convey
all You are, the greatness of our God
I spend my life to know and I’m far from close
To all You are, the greatness of our God 

Oh, Summer. You have been good to me so far. I think the best summer I’ve ever had since I was 9! I remember the summer after that was when my sister went to Italy and I was miserable! I still remember how bored I was and all those migraines I had from watching too much T.V. start creeping back into my head as I’m typing this out. Anyways! This summer has been AWEsomee~. Spending copious amounts of time with friends and family. Okay… spending copious amounts of time with my 3-4 friends and my very small family. Doing whatever, whenever! Doing absolutely nothing whenever I want. Oh boy it feels good. 

Anyways I’ll end this post here. Sometimes I reread my posts and think… mann I sound like a real DOOFUS… but then again I know that anyone who’s on my page probably stopped reading after the first sentence so BOOYAH! (but.. thank you if you’ve come this far.. and I’m sorry.)

I’m gonna do it. 50.. 70.. 100 stamps on my passport! It’s gonna happen. 

(First stop.. Nicaragua)

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All I’m asking is for a good night’s rest. Can’t wait until this is all over.